Chaos and Chemistry (deux)
i describe myself as self-driven.
so self-driven, in fact, that my source of drive should only come from my very own awesome little self. if anybody else attempts to drive me to do something, i’d make the outmost effort to refrain from doing whatever it is that said anybody else pushes me to do. all in the name of ensuring the genuine maintenance and integrity of my self-driven quality. even when i have had the intention and some motivation to perform a certain task. if some dudes or dudettes pop in in the middle of my thinking process, and decide to voice out their concerns and encouragements, i would rather choose to wait and postpone that thing that i planned to do. because then, if the task is done, i would be dudes-or-dudettes-driven. but if nobody else is pushing me to do something, then i’d have delay in hope for the revelation of the perfect time to execute the actions. if not, that would be circumstantially-driven in all technicality. makes one think that one has to do something ’cause one has to do it. and if it’s that important, why is nobody else reminding me to do it? that’s a form of personal principles’ selling out, mind you. and i don’t want that.
yep. i’m a purist that way.
- Procrastinator Anonymous -
